About this pfp change: It's not a call for help. Please don't be concerned about it 💖

⠀• Yesterday - The past is a closed chapter. I’ve stumbled, learned, and grown.
⠀• Today - I’m working to believe in myself and let the support around me guide me.
⠀• Tomorrow - The future is mine to write, and I want it to reflect love, hope, and resilience.

⠀In other words. I'm working on making myself better, slowly but surely. With the support of you all silly goobers 💞

To my friends, my boyfriend, and anyone who’s stayed by my side—I see you, I appreciate you, and I want to assure you: I’m doing my best, I'm doing fine. [genius.com] and I'm still alive. [genius.com]

Here's my New Year Resolutions for 2025:
⠀• Try to focus on Self-Acceptance.
⠀• Try to take Mental Health Seriously.
⠀• Attempt to Strengthen Connections.
⠀• Try to Limit Negative Triggers.
⠀• Try to Celebrate Small Wins.
⠀• Try to Set Achievable Goals
⠀• Do not drink (alcohol)
⠀• Try to be more happy.

New Year Resolutions that I broke:
⠀• Try to not have a episode. (Broken on 13th of January 2025.)

New Year Resolutions that may not be going well:
⠀• Attempt to be less shy (Talk more without being talked to first)
⠀• Possibly try to explore my creativity. (Photography and whatnot.)

! I am IN a relationship. DO NOT think about getting me me to love you as bf/gf. PLUS I AM AROACE, SO ♥♥♥♥ OFF ABOUT THIS. !

It takes me "some" time to trust people—it could be minutes, or it could be years.
So if you send me a friend request, I may accept if I trust you or know you well.

I have depression. And most of the time I struggle with suicidal thoughts.
I'm starting to believe my experience matches Persistent Depressive Disorder (PDD), a long-term form of depression.

I was diagnosed with ADHD, but I think I might actually be autistic instead. Probably got misdiagnosed. Fun.

A really long time ago, I've considered being transgender.

I am Non-Binary . This means I don’t exclusively identify as male or female. I might feel a mix of both, neither, or something entirely different.

I’m Aroace —I don’t experience romantic or sexual attraction. But that doesn’t stop me from having deep meaningful connections, whether they’re platonic, familial, or online.

Now as of some time in January 2025, I'm now Pansexual. Expect me to be looser with how I speak now (sometimes)

Sometimes, I don’t give a sh*t. [genius.com] Haha, fun! (a free bird moment to be honest with ye

I can’t think of what to say most of the time and often find myself lost for words.

My reactions aren’t always the best, and my reaction times can be hit or miss. But hey, sometimes I’m surprisingly fast... sometimes.

Check out the rest of my info here. [buckethead-snowy.vercel.app]

My Main OC/Persona/Mascot info here. [buckethead-snowy.vercel.app]

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In this mode, I’m quite restricted in what I say or do. It’s a deliberate choice influenced by being Aroace and on the grey spectrum of romantic and sexual attraction. I tend to think carefully about what I say, weighing my words before I speak. This personality can show up whether I’m online or in person.

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I mean, it's a possibility, but who knows?! 😸
(Kinda a reference to something I saw at school, it was "math?", like there might be math. But who knows? ^^)

This is a looser, more free-spirited side of me. While I’m still influenced by the traits of Aroace, Grey Aromantic, and Grey Asexual, I relax a lot more in how I speak and act. I don’t really think about what I say before I say it, letting the moment take over. This version of me also exists both online and in person.

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What is this for? - Some lyrics I relate to or like at some moment in the week, day, or whatever

• YonKaGor - Silly Plans •

Why these lyrics?
For you. My sweetheart, my boyfriend: I still deeply love you, even during these episodes of depression. I think of you everytime I try to feel better during the episodes. Even though I hug pillow, or my fox or blåhaj shark plush, I still think of you. No matter what.

Lyrics:
I want to fly
To the country you reside
To a world where I can hold your hands
But that's my silly plan

To walk me through
And to share an endless view
Of a brand new and exotic land
And that’s your silly plan

But right now
In a distant timezone
You're still awaiting
A ringtone on your phone

Maybe someday
We can both live far away
In Toronto, Berlin, or Japan
And that's our silly plan

But right now
In a distant timezone
You’re still awaiting
A ringtone on your phone

Maybe someday
We can both live far away
In Toronto, Berlin, or Japan
And that's my silly plan

No that's your silly plan
And that's our silly plan

To anyone reading this: Life's messy, but it’s worth it. If you’re struggling, know you’re not alone. And if you’re having a good day—thank you for being a light for those who need it. 🌟

P.S. If you are thinking of going through with suicide; please consider therapy and call a Suicide Emergency Hotline. It might not work for everyone, but it’s worth trying.