Man I need everyone’s advice on this. I’m 21 years old and I always been mad ♥♥♥♥♥ but after I started taking fitness seriously it’s gotten way worse

I’m a tall decent looking guy I do well on dating apps and all the girls I slept with I met them on there and you’re wondering why is this relevant because last year I realised I live in a western european country where prostitution is legal and affordable so I went once just to see what’s it like and I loved it. I was totally hooked 95% of them were big booty bbl milf latinas looking like ig models and I just couldn’t control myself

I went from 5 bodies to now 30ish if they count. I’m currently taking a break because I spent a lot of money and jerking off is easier when you’re going thru a hard time financially but if I don’t I literally can’t sleep. All of this while i’m productive and grinding everyday towards my goals.

I'm just going to say it: i love you. Everytime I see your pfp or discord status change into something that doesn't match mine it breaks my heart. When I see you talking or hanging out with other people I get jealous because the truth is, I want you all to myself. i see a future with you and i want to be married to you. i want to be your boyfriend and you write my name in your bio and ill write yours. I want people to know you're mine and that I'm yours. I want to call you for hours at a time stare back at the ceiling while I hold back what's on my mind. I want to be on call when you sleep and when you wake up. I want you forever. I know you don't feel the same way and im probably jsut another online person you game with but i seriously love you. and i dont love easily. i think you're so cute and i want to see your face more often you're my baby and i want you to only give attention to me :) i dont care about anything else just you and me against the world baby <3