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I put this here to let you know this is a summary of me, but it is still me and how I feel. Some emotions can never change. This is me, and my real life.


Sometimes, I feel broken. I feel sometimes that I only want to hangout with a specific person, however sometimes they seem to see through me. This just causes me to over analize and I break down even more. :( But I still try to be happy, and I never give up. Never giving up is my strongest quality aswell as my weakest link.

A person is most theirself, when they wear a mask to hide who they truly are.

Fun Fact: I can tell 99% of the time when somebody is lying. I may show that I believe in the lie, but I will always have secret doubts. And if you lie to me ever, I will find out :)

I feel sad when I am happy, and happy when I am sad. I feel confused in conflicting emotions. I am confused in why I am so happy to find the truth to a secret of which had destroyed everything related while on my journey for truth. I am confused why I am so happy to just believe in obvious lies just to help me sleep better at night. The truth is I don't know what to do. I am a broken man, fragmented in many directions caused by my many beliefs and journeys. I want to just lay down and move never again, however I also want to never give up. I don't have anything that I can't do anymore. But I have to choose between two roads, and is it really worth losing myself on the way.


Thicc white girls are God's greatest creation. (I'm still an atheist!) xD

"Hey you, yeah you. Cute girl, I love you. Hey why are you leaving? Wait! You just stole something! I'm going to call the cops, because you just stole my heart." :(

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EA68KUb4e7Q : Describes how I feel everyday, even when I am 'happy.'

@ I have so many emotions passing through my body, I literally dont know what to do. I just want to smoke until I can't feel pain. I want to drink until I am numb. I want to hold my breath until I can no longer breathe. I want to close my eyes until I can no longer see.

I grow weaker by growing happier. I accept every flaw and error. I understand by making sure you're happy, I'm happy. But I cannot just cover up and pretend that I'm happy all the time. When you watch somebody you care about in somebody else's arms, you grow sadder and more confused. It was always because I want to put somebody elses happiness before my own. I have my own wishes and dreams, but none of them matter unless you're happy first.

My life is very confusing and I am easily anxious. I get upset when people use too many white lies and don't notice how bad they really are. I take an account of every action and react to them all in a serious manor, however sometimes I don't need to be serious because the scenario is a joke. But either way, people shouldn't lie and should accept that even white lies are bad. Just be honest to one another and tell people exactly how you feel even if there is collateral damage. Honesty and pride without prejudice is the ultimate characteristic that any one individual can obtain in their life.