13y.o
War made me a femboy

After 2.5 years of full-scale war in Ukraine (I live in 120 Km near front) i just tired being a far right military boy, after i found out a femboy culture, i realized that i always was more feminime than musculine. I want to shave my legs, put on skirt, i never feeled so gay since war started... I saw so many bad things, that i just want to give up and became gentle femboy, but i cant because afraid of my parents reaction... Just wanted to say how we live in war... sorry if you didnt understand me and dont get so mad pls :з
Edited: I dont fight for my country because im not 18 years old and im so pathetic to pick a gun!!!