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felle

Stockholm, Stockholms Lan, Sweden

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The difference between you and me is that when you wake up your nightmare ends.

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- fAilvin

Yeah, late nights get the best of me
They know how to get to me
Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me
But I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief

Lately I been feelin' like the only way for me to get away is if I poured a drink
That's more deceit, more defeat
Is this really what I'm born to be?

Only Hall of Fame I'll be inducted in is the alcohol of fame
On the wall of shame

All alone in a wall-less prison
Live every day with the pain in the back of my mind
Torture doesn’t begin to describe it

But if this is all there is for me life offers
Why bother even try and put up a fight, it's nonsense

The evil within has never been greater
My soul has been seized and he’s the dictator
I’ve been dragged through the mud
I can still taste the blood
Oh Lord, what have become of me?

Why would you tell a person that they were childish
Without an understanding of the pain that they surround in?

My head don't work, the meds don't work
But I don't want to be dead, dead don't work
Sleep's the cousin of death, the bed don't work
Maybe I'd rather be dead; dead don't hurt

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world, mad world

Lately I been feelin' like the only way for me to get away is if I poured a drink
That's more deceit, more defeat
Is this really what I'm born to be?

You're intoxicated
On your fear and pain
You're infatuated
With your guilt and shame
Feeling sorry for yourself
While the world is dying around you
Sorry I can't help you
This is how it ends

I won't lie
So hard to hide
I've never felt worthy of love
I would give up
Everything I have
Just to feel good enough
Would anyone care, would anyone cry
If I finally stepped off of this ledge tonight?
Would anything change, would you all be just fine?
'Cause I need a reason to not throw the fight
It just might save my life

SETTINGS

Aspect radio: 4:3
Resolution: 1440x1080 BlackBars.

Launch options

-freq 144 -novid -noforcemspd -noforcemparms -noforcemaccel -tickrate 128 +exec autoexec

MOUSE

Windows: 6/11
In-game sensitivity: 1.17
Zoom sensitivity: 0.67
Rawinput: OFF
DPI: 800
Hz: 1000

EQUIPMENT

ASUS 27" ROG SWIFT PG279Q
Logitech g403 WIRLESS
Xtrify Nip Xizt
Sennheiser HD599
Logitech G513 Tactile

VIEWMODEL

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viewmodel_offset_y 2
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