I don't wanna feel better
No one's ever gonna love me like that again
I don't wanna get over you
I wanna sit with you in bed
I don't wanna feel better
I'd give anything to miss you again
I don't wanna get over it
I wanna get under it instead

A book sits on top of clean and messy blankets
On a bed that ♥♥♥♥♥♥' creaks at night when I get in it late
And late at night, I'm chugging Gatorade
And someone's breaking up when I crack up
Because I know I'll never know just what to say

I'm a communist, a terrorist, an MPDG thot
Or I'm a sad girl in a dorm room, living out the shady Christian plot of
Twilight or The Bible or The Lover by Duras
Or I'm just really ♥♥♥♥♥♥' selfish and really ♥♥♥♥♥♥' lost

But someone loved me, someone ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ loved me
Someone ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ loved me and I ♥♥♥♥♥♥' loved them too
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥, I was worth something, I ♥♥♥♥♥♥' learned something
I had my cake (I ate it, it ate me too and, God, no)
I don't wanna feel better

We kept our liquor in a suitcase underneath my bed
And we drank it to go out or just stay in or to feel sad
But in a hot way, a way I'll ♥♥♥♥♥♥' never have again
The sun has began to set

I'm a socialist, Marxist, libertarian slut
I am an awkward teenage virgin and I sort of kinda laugh a lot in bed
But other times, I cry or don't make noise at all
I'd give my life to have a room that feels that small

'Cause someone loved me, someone ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ loved me
Someone ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ loved me, I loved them too
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥, I was worth something, I ♥♥♥♥♥♥' earned something
I have a right to die, a right to live, a right to choose, too
And God, no!

Of course I don't wanna feel better!
Can you ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ imagine?!

No one's ever gonna love me like that again
I don't wanna get over it
I wanna rip the stars to shreds
I don't wanna feel better

Of course it hurt, of course it ♥♥♥♥♥♥' hurt
It hurt like nothing in the world sometimes
That I was super scared, and we were all a train-wreck
And also somehow making it
I think I might've died there twice, and I would do it all again

I'm a nihilist, a soldier, an OCD-machine
Or I'm a healthy baby-girl who traded sunshine for disease
But when my head hit my cheap pillow, I could tell I had a heart
And I wanna tear this fascist Milky Way apart

'Cause someone loved me, someone ♥♥♥♥♥♥' loved me
All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥, I was worth something, I ♥♥♥♥♥♥' learned something
And it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food

I guess I loved you, I guess I really loved you
All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew
And now you're over there, and I'm way over here
What am I gonna do?

I don't wanna feel better
No one's ever gonna love me like that again
I don't wanna get over you
I wanna sit with you in bed
I don't wanna feel better